HOme? what's that?

to me, staying at this place called "home" is not happy at all
when i was in Australia, i hope that i can be at HOME
be surrounded by people that love me
i look forward to go HOME

now i am at HOME
but happiness doesn't come to me instead desaster!
i am literally not happy at  all
why? too many reasons

1. not peaceful at all
HOME should be my sheild, a place that i am 100% comfortable with
yet, this place is only filled with quarrels, arguements....
no trace of peace can be found
i try to avoid by not giving any comments or keep my mouth shut
but, it doesn't help, making the situation worst

2. need to plea everybody
i thought HOME suppose to me a place where i can be my true self
i don't need to wear a MASK and hide my feeling
my so called FAMILY will accept who I am
i am WRONG, totally WRONG
i not only need to hide my feelings and wear a super FAKE MASK but need to be very careful of every single word i used
i need to say things that my FAMILY wants to hear and not my opinion although they ask for my "opinion"

3. no space for me
i thought my things will remain as i leave
when i saw my wardrode is messy and full of my sis's clothes
when i notice that my table is filled with empty plastic bags
my bed is untidy and things that belogs to my beother are all over it
i know i am WRONG again

4.warm? i feel cold
yes, the weather is super hot compare to melbourne
however, my heart is COLD, super cold
everything that i do seems to be wrong
the way i talk, the way i stand.... even the way i dry my clothes
i am not accepted by my family
can u imagine the my mum asked me
"WHY YOU JUST CAME BACK THEN U QUARREL WITH UR SIS?"
everybody don't like you
feel ike crying but i don't even dare to cry

5. mum
i know i shouldn't but still i cannot stop myself
the centre peoblem of the whole thing is deal with my mum
whenever i said something that doesn't make her happy she will reply
"u thought u are very smart, you are just a student, using my money to study & enjoy. if you are not happy just go back. i didn't want u to come back also!"

perhaps, only God can tolerate me
in this house, there will always have a space for me
He will accept who I am and provide whatever that i need
though Him i found peace and warm
yet, He is the only who asked me  to come back, why is He treating me like this?

Cheapest {Brown} bagel

Found this place from urbanspoon

Checked the price and surprisingly it is cheap!

A bagel costs around $9

That's probably the cheapest bagel I can find in Melbourne!

I think the staff are from Korea, very friendly

I asked what bagel that he recommended and he said ONION!

This is the first time I see onion bagel!

Usually it is poppy seed, wholemeal, plain.... But no onion 

They have cheese as well

So this is my roast beef with onion bagel!

Very filling

A bit like burger

$9.5

Actually I came here with LiPoh, a collage friend who came all the way from Sydney

He had Angus beef

Which I think it is really delicious, although I didn't try, it looks good

He said it is special!

The place is quite small and I took a while to find this place!

But it is surrounded my cafes and restaurant

A bit like hardware lane

The address = 330 Collins St Shop 10 Equitable Pl

Something COLD!

#throwback

It is time for ice cream

I know it is winter but ice cream is still awesome!

GELATO MESSINA!
Another famous place at Fitzroy!

Obviously also from UrbanSpoon

Too many choices! Don’t know which one to choose

The queue is long, but I still don’t know which one to choose

At the end, I choose the MIGHTY GM GUM

I think it contain alcohol and it likes chocolate!

Elaine choose LYCHEE

The lychee is a sorbet

Cooling and nice. It should be sold in Malaysia because it will be super popular

We took a 2 scopes in a cup which cost us $6

N2 Extreme gelato!

We still want gelato !!

N2 = nitrogen

I ate the similar concept ice cream/gelato in Malaysia – NBrew

The menu is so special

Drawn on wall!

But that also means not many choices

Anyway, we ordered a “O” cheesecake!

It is cheesecake gelato, middle got Oreo crush

Topped with white chocolate with a syringe of chocolate

Mouth-watering!

So nice!

The shop’s design is very special

No tables and chairs, instead, got LAWN!!

We are laying on a bed made of grass

CAfe CORRETTO

Sometimes eating alone is not pity at all!

I need some private time too

I need some moment to be alone and just keep quiet!

But, I don't really like my surrounding to be quiet

So I like to go to a super packed restaurant to eat!

I am alone but I am surrounded my people!

I like that feeling!

Salmone pasta!

love this!

so fresh!

entree for $12

Miss pasta so much, especially creamy salmone pasta!

Tomorrow will be the first day of my exam!

My first and the last exam in Melbourne university

I am not really stress out as the result won't really affect me!

Since I am sitting for calculus 2 tomorrow, so let's eat fish!

Hmm... Fish is good for my brain and I don't know why but usually before maths exam my mum used to feed me with fish!

Perhaps that's part of the reason I can score quite well in my exams!

Anyway, I crave this for long!

The last time I came to celebrate Rebecca's bday I had this too!

Miss this so much!

Although I wanted to try new food but seriously, I miss this!

Especially in this 9 degrees weather

oh ya, i think the boss love Ferrari very much
you can see all ferrari studd there
but i am not a fan of that!

 beside PapaGino ~ 227 Lygon St, Carlton VIC 3053

Mid night Gelatissmo

we are really crazy!!
went out for ice cream at 12 am!
okay, that sounds normal BUT...
the temperature outside is 10 degrees!
ARE WECRAZY??
nope , we are not!
just too stress!

i had rocky road!! super chocolate!! 

okay, having GELATISSIMO in the midnight is really cool
the ice cream won't melt
we joked, played around in the journey
it is really a great and brand new experience!
i don't know i still have how much time left to have fun with them
but i treasure every moment!

thanks for accompany me!

Wonder-BAU!

I skipped class!!

I don't have practical for physics this week

So my first class is 1pm

I hevent had lunch! And don't feel like going for class

I just accepted the NUS offer

Having mixed feeling, I am leaving Melbourne, this one of the greatest place on earth!

A bit emo!

So decided to skip chemistry!

I am really lucky that I have a friend like LIHui

She accompanied me! Although she have lunch already!

 So we went to WONDERBAO!

It is one of the best cheap eat! Based on the booklet from uni!

I wanted to go for times but cannot find the place

Yet, this time I managed to find it! It is in a sort of shopping mall, no wonder I cannot find it!

This small little shop sells delicious bao!

There is limited selection of bao!

i heardthat their ssoya milk is nice

it is homemade!

I have a braised pork belly bau with a taro bao

The taro bau is actually for LiHui, she loves taro very much!

The pork belly bau is pretty nice!

Not very salty, I like it!

It costs $4.2 which LiHui and I feel that it is quite expensive 

The taro is $2 but quite weird, I mean the taste!

But this is a good place to hang out!

The view outside the shop is amazing!

It is a art street!

Love this to max!

Relax for an hour then go back uni!

it is in the interior of the building ~ Shop 4/19-37 A'Beckett St 

GOD what you mean?

God are you kidding me?
you send me all the way to melbourne and now what you mean?
going back to square one?
i just randomly choose one and i get it!
and it is among the hot course
i have prayed for direction for a long time, is this your plan for me?

i am really confused!
last sunday, pastor talk about break through
he mentioned that break through belongs to those who don't have a choice
i am really motivated by the talk
plus i really want to experience break through and grow more!
now, you are giving me another choice!
is that a break through for me?

did you notice the date?
it is on my birthday!!
does that means anything? or just so happened?
one of my birthday wishes is to now what i really want.

last friday, during UL, we talked about dreams
i wrote in the "dream card" that i want to experience God and grow more
is this the plan for me?

in melbourne, i really feel that i grow a lot, especially spiritually
i got to know you more!
comparing me back in Malaysia, i m now completely a different person!
i notice my changes because of you
now, are you telling me to go back?
can i know you more even if i go back?
is coming melbourne for a short period is your plan for me?
does NUS really suit me?
is chemical engineering really the best for me?

i know you know me more than myself and you already have plans for me, but please tell me!!

A.E.I.O.U

Decided to Change the name of my blog!

So the new name is......

A.E.I.O.U

why? Hmm... Because it is easy to remember and I don't really want to live a simple life in UNIVERSITY ! I want it to me AWESOME!

Plus, I want to ENJOY my life in Melbourne with EAT & play!

so, I am OVERWHELM so announced the new name of my blog!

A stands for Adventure!

I want to share my adventure in my life with everyone!

Basically, I consider myself as an ACTIVE girl! 

E basically means EAT!

I love food, especially dessert and pastry! everybody knows!

I love to go EXPLORE for good food!  

Now, I m in Melbourne and this place to me is a paradise to me!

Seriously, I really ENJOY myself very much in Melbourne !

I? I mean "I" 

This is my blog ago it is all about my story, my life!

Basically everything is all about me!

I hope that my story can INSPIRED you!

O = overseas!

I am a Malaysia girl! So to me, I am now out of Malaysia and considered overseas!

And for this, I am OVERJOYED !!

U can be defined as UNIVERSITY!

This is a new chapter of my life! Especially in this brand new URBAN!

I want to share with U my amazing uni life!

So, here brings you my blog ~ A.E.I.O.U

Adventure.Eat.I.Overseas.University

First smoothie bowl

Back in Asia, I don't really take smoothie
What I mean smoothie is healthy smoothie which contains fruits & veggie
But now I ♥ it so much

So what's smoothie bowl?
Basically is pour ur smoothie in a bowl and add some topping for it!
For me,  I added muesli & a spoon of peanut butter! :-D
♡ IT TO MAX

It is really simple and healthy!

Growing

每颗心都寂寞
每颗心都脆弱都渴望被触摸
越长大越孤单 越长大越不安
也不得不看梦想的翅膀被折断
也不得不收回曾经的话问自己
纯真的眼睛哪去了
越长大越孤单 越长大越不安
也不得不 打开降落伞
也突然间 明白未来的路 不平坦
难道说 这改变是 必然

Is that the price to buy to grow?
Growth is a process that everyone will go through
When I was young, I waited to grow up very fast!
At that time, I thought that it is good to grow up fast so I can do everything I wanted
But it that true?
I dont know what I really want?
What will my life be?
Am I doing the right decision?
Questions flow into my brain nonstop!
I m scared!

I want someone to can lead me, can go through everything with me
I m affraid aud lonely!

They are GREAT!

BBQ is fun! It is even funnier having it indoor!

So here it where we are! YAN YAN's house!

I never knew Yan Yan is married!

Alright, who is Yan Yan ?

Good question!

I have joined the off Carlton last Friday night(yesterday is my second time)

As I am still exploring Christian, I joined the bible discovery group!

This is a small bible study discussion that allowed me to ask as many questions as I want and not being laugh by others (hurray!)

So, Yan Yan is one of the group member!

The group consist of many Christians who are pretty familiar to the bible plus newbies like me!

Obviously, Yan Yan is a Christian!

Last night after the bible study, we decided to have a gathering to bond together!

So that's why I am here today!

There is a bit twist and turn but we needed up at Yan yan's house!

We have an awesome dinner!

Got a lot of FOOD!

Sausages, bread, salad, drumstick, corn......

After dinner, we have game section where we really have fun!

I forget what the game called (ops, I m getting old!)

Anyway, it is fun that I need to keep saying "I wouldn't do that!"

I don't know why I always find that people who go to church is easy going

They always think positively, you hardly hear anything negative come out from their mouth!

They are friendly and can get along pretty well!

Maybe we don't have any competition or clashing of benefit!

I love mixing around with them!

Internet Access + ME!

So now i finally know how important is the internet!
I am currently in melbourne where the apartment i stay do not provide internet
My flatmates intend to share a wifi and it is still in the process (apparently the process takes around 2 weeks, so LONG!)
So now i am living with only 2gb data phone plan! (dying!)

PEOPLE NOWADAYS CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT INTERNET!

THERE ARE A FEW REASONS BEHIND IT :

1. Applications!!!
In advanced countries like Australia, everything is done with the internet!
University enrollment needs to done ONLINE!
Subjects enrollment is ONLINE too!!
Even timetabling is also ONLINE!!!
If you don't have Internet access basically you do NOTHING!!

Talking about banking, you need to do INTERNET BANKING which requires Internet access!
Why Internet banking? apparently in Australia you can only transfer money with Internet baking!
not to mention that i even need to apply a bank acc. ONLINE!

What about TFN? Tax File Number is something like the number for each individuals to pay income tax!
Even if you don't work, you need that too!
And again, apply it ONLINE through www.ato.com.au !

Almost everything is done ONLINE! it is really environmental friendly as it is PAPERLESS!

2. Enquiry!!

Got something to ask? not to sure about smt?
In Australia, you don't really need to make phone calls!
You can CHAT ONLINE!! you get immediate reply by the staff or representative! so cool!
not only chat online, you can even TWEET!
Library of university of Melbourne have twitter that you can ask almost everything about it through twitter!!
besides, if there is something formal, just EMAIL!
No more paper forms to fill, instead online forms like google drive!

3. Connections

Wanna keep in contact with new or old friends, use SOCIAL NETWORK!!
There are tons of them!!
Personally, i use FB, Insta, WeChat, Line, Whatapps.....
Especially in connecting with my friends back in Malaysia or Singapore, i use all these!
FYI, i am using a mobile package which has unlimited TXT to international and local!
So i do sms my friends overseas but i will ask them to reply me through social network because it is FREE!

Now, tell me how many of us can live without Internet Access?
but I really wonder why in Australia there is not so many FREE WIFI spots like Malaysia.
they depends much on ONLINE but hard to find FREE INTERNET ACCESS!!
what if someone dont have mobile data, how can they survive?

Something to share!

Just so you know, I don't really approve of chain messages but this one seems legit ...Sooo
THIS IS HOW FRIENDSHIP BREAKS 

Both friends will think that they are too busy

They will not contact each  other thinking it may be disturbing

As time passes, both will think... "let the other contact me"

After a while, each will think... "why should I contact first?"

Here, your love will gradually be converted to pride

Finally, without contact, the memory becomes weak

They forget each other.....

One day they will meet and blame one another

So, let's keep in touch, my dear friend

I don’t wanna be one of those kind of friends

So here I am saying,
I miss you! And hope that all is well with you?

Life is no fun without friend

Where I am?

i don't know why...
feel like i dont have a space in this place anymore
feel a bit like there is no longer a place for me!
i want to escape from here
but where can i go!
i have nowhere that can give me comfort!
that is no place that have a place for me!
i am homeless, nowhere to go & i don't know what to do!

perhaps $$ is really important!
if i have $$, i can buy myself a place and call it 'home'!
this "home" can be more than a shelter, it can also be a place that i know i will never be hurt

$$ cannot buy LOVE
but it can solve problems

Cheat by photos in menu?

 Finally understand why the food I ordered is different from the menu!

Because of FOOD PHOTOGRAPHY!
Indeed it is legal to do so but still I feel this is sort of cheating!

Do you know that the bowl of  ceral on the ceral box is actually ceral with white glue instead of milk?
We thought it was maple syrup on the pancake but it is actually petrol oil!
The beautiful ice cream is just mash potato?
The meat is half cooked so that it looks nicer!

It is true that the food really looks mouthwatering!
But most of  these food cannot be eaten!
A lot are not REAL food, they are FAKE!

I found this book at the recommendation rack in bukit merah community library!
It gave me a lot of knowledge regarding photographing food!

For each shoot, we need a art director, food and prop stylish & of course a photographer!
Every shoot takes time from planing , scheduling, shopping,  prepping, propping, hero (food) and lastly clean up!
Not that easy right?

The book also mentioned a lot regrading the lighting
Lighting really affect the food presentation!
The effect of lighting is the main factor for food photography!

Gain additional information on this!

Perhaps it will help me in food blogging
Yet, I will use REAL FOOD! 

SHOW EVERYONE THE REAL THING although it might not be so beautiful!

Home? It is just a shelter!

Maybe she is right , to me this is not a home but a shelter!
A shelter that provides me to place to sleep & stay that's all!

Human is a funny creature
When I m at subang, I miss this so called "home"
Yet now, I wish to go back to subang!

Can you imagine my life now? 

Everyday seems to be a battle

A battle that I will never win

I suffered!

I read this phase somewhere "a home is not  house"
Yeah,  I guess the main difference between home and house is the word regarding "love♥"

I kept convincing myself that I m being loved
As time goes, I don't think I can stand it anymore

Perhaps a lot of people would think that I have a HAPPY family
I have pretty mummy and quite generous in $$ daddy
However god is fair
You cannot have everything in your hands

Shouting, screaming and sometimes even swearing!
I just wanted a quiet & peaceful life!
Why can't she give me?

I kept quiet doesn't mean that she is right
It is just that I don't want to argue, maybe I m too tired to do so already!

Anyway,  in her mind she is always the right one, everything is the other's fault, not hers!

I just want to enjoy my last one month in this place before I further studies in Australia
Lucky still has a month only :-D

Complaints, complaint, complain!

The human does complain
I do so do you!
Because we are all human and nothing is perfect in this world

Some of the complaints are necessary
Yet most of the complaints are just merely complaints

However, we didn't notice that complain is a habit,  a bad habit
This is considered a negative attitude

Did you notice that when we start complaining, negative thoughts came into our mind!
Especially when we complain about others
For instance, when we complain about the other's attitude, our mind will only keep thinking of the bad things about the person
Whenever we start complaining, we ignore the positive traits of the person
We tend to zoom in the negative and Automatic delete the positive!

Maybe to you it is just   nothing, no effect to ourselves
But not really!

When we think of any negative attitude, either of yourself or others, your brain will release a type of hormone
This hormone will affect your emotion
You tend to be sad, you tend to think of negative stuff and as time goes you are practicing negative attitude

Hence, since complain is a habit change this habit!
Habit takes time to mould and change
So start now!

BLAMING?

Please, don't attribute your attitude & behavior to how someone else treats you!
This is an excuse!

I seriously don't understand why people like to blame everything to others
As if they are the victim, it's not their fault at all
They just like to push all the things to another person
What I really cannot stand is that they even do the same thing on their ATTITUDE

A.T.T.I.T.U.D.E.
Do you blame others just because you are unhappy ?
Do you blame others because you have negative thinking & causes depression?
Do you blame others when you get angry?
Do you blame the bus because you are late?
Do you blame the economy when you cannot find a job?

Don't be surprised! it is very normal for human beings to blame others!
but, most importantly, after some time you may begin to reflect yourself!

You cannot blame others when you are not happy!
You are the one who can control your emotion!
AND YOU ARE THE ONLY WHO DECIDE NOT TO BE HAPPY!!
You choose to be isn't it?
You choose to think the negative part instead of positive part！
Don't tell me that there is nothing worth for you to be happy with!
Are you telling me you have a miserable life for your whole life??
if you really think you really have a "unsuccessful" life why don't you take a look the kids at africa then only you will realize that your life is a bless!

People who have depression and like the whole world knows that they got depression is just DEPRESSION ATTITUDE!
They just want to push the responsibility of what they did with depression
Actually, they don't have depression at all
It is only they kept telling themselves they are having depression and as time goes, they got depressed
Many of them just take "depression" as a reason for others to give in!

Why don't you say that it is your low EQ that causes you to get angry??
Why don't you blame yourselves for that?
Indeed, there are cases that really get our monkeys up in real life, but we can be frustrated for a second and not for the whole life!
Or a better way, it changes your attitude and train for a higher EQ!

Blaming the bus and the economy is pretty common for us!
But think about it again!
If we have the "why don't I wake up earlier" attitude, we won't be late because we missed the bus
if we have the "be the best, beat the rest" attitude, we won't be sacked by companies & bad economy will not affect you at all
Just imagine, which boss would like to fire staff that bring benefits to the company?

See, it is all about our attitude!
we used to hear, you are what you EAT!
but, now i am telling you that you are what your ATTITUDE!!